At the moment, I am feeling very tired and my mind is in a such a mess from the last two days. Also, my heart have been devastated about what happen yesterday. Considering all that happen the last 48 hours, I am really amazed that I am still standing proudly and still treating that everything will be alright and back to normal.

But, what positive came up was I felt that was human again when I was just standing in a nice warm foyer talking briefly to my friend. That is where I felt home again. Not worried about anything or be scared about what will happen the next day. It was nice brief chat but one that I will love to continue to have if I have the chance. The conversation we have were sometimes meaningful or somewhat very brief. But, it was still magical like time had stopped for that couple of seconds.

Of all my friends, only two of my best and closest friends knew what happen yesterday that devastated every inch of my heart. Rest in peace my favourite one. I will miss you most, but only for temporarily. In one weeks time, you will be back to normal and my heart will be whole again. I dont dare to say much but only this

'ALWAYS READ THE INSTRUCTION SHEET BEFORE YOU TRY ANYTHING, NEW/DIFFERENT"

Apart from that, our music group TMTJ, did a great job and had proven the critic time and time again that we can still do it even though we are just starting as a small group. The praise and worship was magical more so when it was performed in a informal venue i.e. in the Church Hall. When I stood in the hall, I knew that it would be rather nerve racking to sing to all these people. So I close my eyes instead. It did work as all we reveal our plan with fervent and passion.

I starting to doze off to work. Better do some work before my level of concentration is depleted.


Long house boy - Signing off

I will miss you guys

So what Can I say after all that had happened the last couple days. COSDU just had their AGM. I had watched X MEN twice (awesome movie by the way). I seen and survive near deatch experience and also I experience God's touch in the way I can comprehend. 

What is next? One thing in my mind that is I am excited but sadden is my music group performance this weekend. I for one would love to go and sing and perform with them but time and work schedule does not fit the criteria. To my fellow musicians, if I cant make this saturday, you all will be in my mind and in my heart. I will be praying for the angels to come down to help you sing God's praise. They will bring their angelic voices and instruments to make it the most enriching and satisfying moment of your lives. All I wish now that I will be there to see this present is reveal to everyone on Saturday. 

All the best my dear friends. I do hope I can make it this Saturday. Pray for me so I can make it. If not, I will pray in my way to see you Guys through the day. 

Long house boy - signing off

One last surge of Grace - Part 2

I paused. Another memory flashed by. Not all was bad.

This memory came and comforted me.

"I was now a man. How I became a man? I was a follower. I followed, I questioned and I was rebuked for my persistence. But, they were pleased. They knew how young and inexperienced I was. They did not judge me or left me alone by the side of the road. They took me up and nurtured me. They cared and molded me into the person who I am today. The reason why I am here and in the line of fire is because they had entrusted me to continue with The Faith."

I closed my eyes. With this memory, my will and strength came back.

One last effort I told myself. One last surge of grace.

I looked directly in front of me and heard a loud booming voice shouted an order. It was all blur to me now. I had accepted my fate. I had run my course. I looked my brother and instantly he knew what will happen next.

Suddenly, it was all pitch black. The time is now close. Tears were dripping in my eyes. Every tear that fell on the ground gave me strength. I guess this must be how the apostles/saints must have felt when they stood with their head high as they held fast their FAITH before they were shot or hanged. Proud and strong till death.

And so, in the depths of my heart, I prayed to My True God,

Abba Father, Here I stand before the Courts of Men. They had misjudged me and had mistreated me. But, I kept my word!. I had served your people. I had fed them, sheltered them and protected them. Yet, they rejected me. They had abandoned me when I need them most. However, if one soul today is to be save because of my sacrifice, I am humbly accept my defeat. Let your Will be done as You have said.

Then with one last surge of will, I shouted “Father, if I or mankind had offended you, please forgive us!”

Heard click! And snap. Sound of the rifle cocking up too aim.

A loud Voice shouted Fire!

For a moment there I thought of the time when we stood together as friends in the hall of unbelievers, proclaiming Your Word proudly.....

- THE END -

THE MORAL OF THE STORY

WHEN ALL FAILS IN LIFE, ONLY YOUR FAITH IN GOD'S LOVE IS YOUR STRENGTH!

Long house boy - Signing off

One last surge of Grace - Part 1

My time was up. Dragged from the floor and tied to the pole, my every being cried out with pain of the lashes I received before. But, I gladly bear the pain for you all as my pulse raced and my hands were trembling at the fear of death.

I looked around and I saw I was in a open court yard of an old ruins. The walls were smudged by dried blood. Blood of the innocent who died for their Faith. There were still foot prints where a young boy had left when he was chasing after his friends in game of ball. The cool tropical wind blew in my face gently which only gave a slight comfort from the hot humid temperature. I then looked at my left. I saw my family members, my friends standing helpless.

Mum was kneeling and pleading. Dad was crumpled in heaps in the arms of older brother. They were powerless. I tried comforting them with a smile but I couldn’t. My lips were dried from dehydration of the past months in the old jail. I sighed and sadness swell within me as I looked up in the sky. Clouds were forming. It seems that rain is coming. I swallowed my sadness down my throat and as I looked ahead, memories of old came flashing through.

"I was a young boy and live was good. However, my heart grew heavy as flashes of my life changed. I saw my disappointment in my own eyes. I felt my heart was broken to many pieces when told my younger brother my story of my survival in the jungle of Sumatra. I told him how I have coped with adversities in keeping my Faith strong when there seemed no hope. I spoke wistfully the time when I cared and respected others but no appreciation of thanks were returned. I spoke how I have continue to feed, sheltered and protected them for all this years as their brother but in the end they had abandoned me and rejected me of the person I was. Even now, they had turned their backs on me."

The kings and queens of Old and New

Time of decision and contemplating had just passed. The moment of truth is close at hand as final verdict is passed down to each of the beings in the grand hall. All eyes were fixed on the wall tapestry as the herald remind all in present the tales of chivalry of the old kings and queens of legend. Soon a lineage of new kings and queens will be form in the Land of Udsoc. They will bear the name of royal title.  For one year, they will need to heed to the rules of their subjects and the teachings of the One true God. 

With each names announced by the herald, a loud cheer of Hooray! erupted in the crowd. They had accepted each of new royal kin in terms of their merit and status. One by one the royal kin walked forward and placed their right palm on the sacred relic. In this moment, they swore an oath that binds them for the period of their ruling. One who break this oath, will not only be expelled but also be chastised in front their loyal subjects. 

Soon the oath ceremony ended, ten new chairs made by finest woods from the Forests of Tutenkhamuzam were brought into the hall. One by one the seats were filled and on each chairs names of the elected were engraved. Below each name, a ancient rune symbols were engraved only seen by the expert eye stated "He/she who seat on this chair, is blessed and will achieve Greatness" . A low humming buzz echoes across the room as the newly elected began to sit on their new chair.  The crowd began to stir as the herald informed that crowning ceremony is near to the end.

Now, the crowning ceremony had completed another cycle, their names will not whispered in the lowest cells and dungeons but in every songs and poetry across the land.

Mentally tired Long house boy - signing off

Well, tonight I will be watching X men origin - WOLVERINE. My all time favourite hero in the Marvel Comic series other than Spiderman. Love his invulnerability, Love his passion, Love his bravodo, Love every part of him.

The Weapon X. Weapon Xcellent! Weapn Xtreme

Can't wait to see it tonight. Can't wait! It feels cold tonight but I dont mind. I am going to watch it. Lalala. Driving down to the city only set back is looking for car space around dinner time. Would be challenging for me since I have only a pair of eyes looking for the one and only space in Melbourne CBD. If I have more people in the car, it would make it more eyes on the lookout.  

So I am all dressed up now.  Wearing my favourite blue Jeans. This Jean have been to many movies, occasions, birthdays, clubbing, and considering tonight will be a special night where I will finally see my Favourite Marvel Comic hero comes to life. It is fit for me to wear this jeans once more. Not forgeting my my favourite black long evening shirt and a warm singlet underneath.

I may think of bringing my leather jacket tonight cos it will be rather chilly after 10.30 pm in the City. Let see I think I am all set. All I have to do is wait for the time to tick to 8 pm. Then I am off on my "Harley Davidson" green motorcar. 

Cheerio! Long house boy - signing off

Having a great time

Today, we just ended another praise worship practice session with a high note. I was coordinating the songs as usual with my constant reminder the time and the title of the songs we need to look or refresh. But, it was done in a jovial mood. 

People came to practice with tired heart, body and mind and came out with warm tingling feeling that keeps them pump up for our actualy performance in 2 weeks time. We got through most of the songs pretty quickly just enough of time to have a 5 minute break of food and drinks. I wonder this what is like to be in a youth band. Practice and fellowship and practice. But, I like it a lot. I wish I can be better that leading a praise and worship group and really put myself in front and be total in control. Time will tell and more prayer and reflection is needed. 

So our next practice will be this Saturday at the hall where we will perform live with many audiences. I do hope all our nerves and butterflies will settle down after we have seen the hall and had sang in the hall to hear how the acoustic hall works. It would be exciting for everyone. I am anticipating the moment I step into the Hall. I wonder what I will feel. Is this for real? This is it? Its game on. We are going to do it finally. 

We had a dose of reality when the CCR newsletter has been passed around in our practice session. We had our name of our band on the newsletter. Everyone eyes lit up. This is it. It is now on pen and paper and here is our goal we are aiming for and I felt that it is right and good. I believe we can do this. Prayer and more prayer is all we need now. 

Till our next practice this saturday, I will continue to keep you guys in my prayers to ask our Provider to grant us good health, good food and good rest before our performance.

Long house boy - signing off

My First Blog

I really dont know what to blog about. The last time I blog about anything it all end up into short stories and poetry which last for eternity. I dont think I have that much creativity to do that tonight. Maybe some where in the future I may take up my pen to write a short poetry.

So, today ah what did I do today? I slept late last night because I was on msning. Don't you love long meaningful online conversation but then dread the next morning panda eyes and grumpy voice. That was me this morning. Woke up late and drove like maniac to work. I reached there on time but was greeted by tons of queries from many diverse topics.  Topics like how are you to I dont know what to do, can you tell me? 

Ahh my life being an Inspection coordinator. Nevertheless, I am waiting for the time I will get a pay rise. But, I cant see it come in the next couple years. So, right now I am looking at other alternatives. Maybe teach religion in schools or science in school. Or to go back and become a farm supervisor. 

Anyway, I am liking this job at the moment. Give me time to write love letters or confession letters to my self and my Heart or go on and check my hotmail to see if there are any face book. updates. Who knows I can be a famous one day? I have so many of my own creation ready to unleash.

well that's all for now. Adious - Longhous boy signing out