Monday, October 26, 2009

Ralph theory: The Health signpost

On one early cool Saturday morning, after a restless sleep the night before, I woke up with a buzz in my head. It isnt any parasite or some unfortunate bee got stuck in my ear. It felt warm and fuzzy. The closest sensation that could describe this feeling is the day before the last paper of my finals. I was anticipating but yet nervous. My heart was pumping a million miles as I got ready for the long day ahead.

I had to stop by Bunnings before the real event start. When I arrive there, it wasnt open yet. I scratch my head and wonder why. So, I checked the opening time details on the door. Opening hours on Saturday is from 8.00 am to 9.00 pm. I was 30 minutes early. hmm.. I should have checked properly before leaving the house this morning. But, nevertheless, I waited in my car till 8am. Soon, the shop opened and I rushed to get everything ready.

I left Bunnings at around 8.30am to meet up with my good friend in the city at 9am. While I was driving to city, my mind was moving back and forth, pacing like caged jaguar. I still havent made my decisions yet. I need to see it for myself and get to know how it will respond to me. On and on this kept repeating in my head not knowingly, I was 5 minutes away from my friend's place. So, I pick up my mobile phone and dialed a number. "Hie, are you ready yet? I'm downstairs now?". "Yes, give me couple more minutes and I'll be down" the voice in the phone replied.

So, I waited. While I was waiting, I pulled down the driver seat and closed my eyes. Couple minutes later, at the corner of my eye, I saw my friend pacing down the road. We greeted each other and proceed to my destination. We stopped by a bakery shop first as we were early and the place was not open until 9 am. I had sausage roll and it was very nice. My friend had meat pie and commented it was better than the home made pie in QueenVictoria Market.

Off, we went to the place. The place was not far from my work place in North Melbourne. I parked the car and walked into the main entrance. As we approached the entrance, there were already many people gathering around with their furry friends. Some were sitting down, Some were passing through, Others were in a enclosed ring engrossed with lessons been taught by their teacher. We paused for a moment to watch the lesson being taught. We commented about how well the furry friends reacted and how cute they are.

Then, we continue to meet with IT. We passed one door and another door and saw this huge compound with several blocks. The block that we meant to go is  Block C. We saw a directional arrow to Block C and followed the direction where the arrow is pointing. I was trying not to show that I was excited for this big day but I really want to catch the glimpse of IT. Around we went to each dorms commenting, observing and touching each furry ones. When we arrived at IT's dorm, we stopped and kneeled down to say hello. Before, I even reached the dorm's gate, IT and I made the first eye contact. We had that eye contact before Saturday, but today was more special than any other day.

I stepped away for the purpose to observe how he will react with other people. A lady with her children came over and say Hello and she greeted IT. IT didnt show much enthusiasm about the lady compare when I first greeted IT. Then, its like a confirmation that IT had chosen me and I had chosen IT. But, I had still need to make the final destination. No one could help. Not even my good friend. My friend said, "Just pray about it" and I did. After praying, a felt the sense of calmness and confidence. Feeling this, I accepted my decision. I walked into the reception and I told the receptionist that I would like to take IT home and that I will not be changing IT's name but keep IT's name as Ralph.

Brief introduction of who is Ralph.
Ralph aka cross between Pug/King Charles Cavalier aka Pugalier.

He is a medium size dog with a curl tail with a bull dog look on his face but without the slobber or saliva from the mouth. He is all tan with white patches down his chest, starting from his chin to his under belly. I did not observe his eyes but from where I was, it looks shiny, alert and healthy.

His personality is one of calmness, playfulness and cheekiness. He doesn't bark much but he whines or stands on his two hind feet to get your attention. He is a very intelligent dog (amazed how much he knows and how fast he can pick up)

Soon after, application papers and forms were filled up and signed. The vet nurse then came and gave a talk on pet's care and what's not. I did not pay much attention as I was very much excited to finally decide to get a dog after a month of research and pondering.

As the title state " Change of Life and routine". Now, my life is filled with early morning and evening 30 mins walks, hugs, doggy hair on my shirt/trousers, smell of doggy poo in the morning and early rest. I would say it will take some get used to but I can see it will be benefit both me and Ralph as I am taking one more step to my dream goal to be healthy mind,body and spirit.

Hopefully, I will meet someone soon who have the same interest in life and animals as I am so we can build on the partnership that I had already began to unravel together through God's guidance and light and with God's love and his Holy Sacrament of Unity.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Two love affair in one week.

I need to get this off my chest. The past two weeks, I have been very very very naughty. Being very naughty until I need to blog about it and tell the whole world about what I did.

Here goes. I have being involve in two love affairs. Unfortunately, I had to the other one left me when they knew I was also in love with another party. Sighs this happens whenever people are two timing the other. But, for me this is different. My love affair is not of human kind or materialistic kind. My love affair is beyond human understanding. What I am refering too is the love affair/affection when someone is looking for a new pet to enter his/her new life.

So, back to my love affair. My first affair was with this bubbly, outgoing, robust, energy character. This character had a gorgeous smile and lovely personality. Friendly and always greet and smile to everyone to become friends with. So adorable was the nature of the up bringing, all who come and say hello, fell in love. I fell in love when I first laid eyes on this character. Soon after, we became friends, greeting and talking to each other like we knew each other for a long long time. However, this honeymoon time did not last long. Only this morning, the character decided to leave me for another. I felt sad in side but my heart was happy.

Then another love came into my life. This one is different. Not as robust, or full of energy like the one before. Very shy, independent, studborn. All the opposite of the other character. Friendly yes but selective. I began to fell in love with this character when I first saw a glimpse of what kind of potential and talent inside. I wish I could bring out the goodness and potential inside out but that will take more patience, time and money. Money I have, only time and patience is limited.

Nevertheless, I was very naughtly to have two love affairs. But, I was happy with my two love affairs. I met a character whom I really will fall in love and one I find slowly attracted to realise I have work hard to get to their heart. I will continue to search till I find one that matches my heart puzzle. The missing puzzle that still remain hidden from my side. One that will complete me and make whole.

Signing off,
Long house boy

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Seek and ye shall find

As time stood still,

on this rainy and windy night
Drops of rain pitter patter against
the cold wet stone

A naked lonely soul outside
unclothed, wet and hungry
His heart full of sadness and grief
He walked with each step brings
memories of family and departed loved ones

A window appear in his sight
He peered in the window
remembering the memories he had
once of his dearest
his parents
brothers
sister

But, no face was seen
No laughter nor singing could be heard
only the sound of rain echoing
in the empty street

As he searched and wandered
A lit candle flickered did he see
He began to knock on the door
Once, Twice, Thrice

No one answered
His hunger grew more
His heart grew heavy
His hope began falter
With a great sigh, He walked into the rain

There in the street, he stood,
soaked in the soft gentle falling of the rain,
He close his eyes and stretch his arms,
embracing the sky like someone he knew,
He smiled,
He was just happy to be alive.

Rain drops became to fall heavily
Eyes open
Tears of sadness wiped away
Replaced with tears of joy

Once was lost,
He had found
In his stillness
His dearest love is gone from his sight
But, dwell in a better place.

With this thought in his mind,
A door opened
A friendly familiar face appear
Come in Dad, it's raining
A young girl with a umbrella

Hunter and prey

As the moon arise in the east

A lone creature howled
All creatures; large and small prick their ears
Their hearts began to thump like tiny drum beats
Dull senses before now heighten
Dull muscles began to spring into action.
Their serenity and calmness was disturbed
Away, you hunter! Leave us in peace!

The ancient hunter stretched his limbs
Sensing his sore muscles, he flexed and stretched
With elegant and grace he settled down into a slow pace
Out of his winter rest, He sniffed the crisp winter air
Familiar scent trail lingers in the air.
He traced each trail with a quick sniff
Rabbits, geckos, wood pigeons, ducks
From his resting place, he jumped
Into the world he call his domain

He sprinted forward lapping up the snow
With the wind in his face
He stopped and sniffed
What is this new scent I sensed?
An intruder? A prey? A new challenge?
His jaws snapping into the air
His heart thumping for joy
No matter, for destiny awaits him

In the thickness of the brush
He sniffed the air for direction
North, East, South, West
The ground was cold and wet.
With his paw, he scratched
He had caught up.
The hunter howled to announce his return
Off to the East, his muscles, ears and eyes obeyed

Creatures, large and small in bush sensed
With unison they murmured,whispered and clattered
Across the land a warning tempo could be heard
Be aware everyone! For today maybe your last!
For the hunter is close!

Hearing this, the hunter quickened
With his powerful limbs, he traveled swiftly
Through the log, over the streams
Turning and bending as he make his way

The wind died down
The cricket stops
The grass went still
Moments passed
The hunter paused and settled down

Snow began to drift down.
He, the hunter knew his time is now
He adjusted his weight and wait
His eyes pierced through the white mist
With his paw testing the ground
His vision sharpened

Sound of hooves approached
Rustles of leaves and a puff of cloud was seen
The Hunter noted this with great anticipation
A pair of large pointed antler appeared
Followed with a white snow velvet fur
Sparks flew as the white shadow moved with grace

Here stood, the great white snow stag of legends
His powerful muscles tremble
Signs of ancient battle wounds glistened with sweat.

The stag stood tall and proud
He sense the hunter is near
He pawed the ground with his hooves
Puff of snow jumped into the air
His battle days are not over yet
He knew his time will come

With determined eyes,
They challenged each other with a glance.
Stories of prophecy had foretold of this battle to come
"One will perish and one will Live"
"Life now is in balance"
For the victor, For the stage had been set
for

The joy being with you

Like a stream flows down a sloping hill
It is to me when I am with u
I am the water and your are the hill
When I flow, you guideth me
whereever you go, I will follow

To the ends of the valley I will find
To the top of the hill I will stay
For I know You are everywhere
You are in the trees
and I in the leaves
You are in the wind
and I in the birds
You are in flower and I in the bee
and you are my moon and i am the night

Life with you is a miracle comes through
Life with you gives me hope
Life with you gives me love
Life with you gives me strength
Life with you gives me peace

When you are not there
I feel lost
Lost in the forest
Lost in the castle
Lost in the desert
Lost in the soul

But, when I shout 'Where are you?"
You appear next to me
You came without a sound
Your voice soft and loving
Your presence ever giving
You came to me with a smile
that stayed with me
For years to come.

Comfort of a prayer.

MY Life came crashing down when I let it control me. I don't even know where am I in this world. I feel lost and alone. I don't even feel I belong here. I walked around the house just questioning what is it I am feeling inside and what is worrying me so much. I shoke my head i still don't know why you treat me so.


I have no mood to eat nor smile. I don't even enjoy watching my dvd today. Sighs.. is there something wrong with me? I used to snap out of this straight away. Why is it lingering and clinging on me for such a long time. I wish i just have the answer! Something to comprehend what I feel inside and out. Something I can grasp physically not something i can't see nor touch.

I recieved an sms. I was so shock and suprise to get it as I don't usually get it from the beyond. I read it and I was filled with mix emotion. I felt shock, sad and upset. Why does it have to be me? Why can't I live a normal life? You of all people should know that I am so fragile inside. I just cannot handle this anymore. You ask too much from me. Please I beg of you let me know what you are feeling inside. Don't keep me out from your gaze and your warm touch. I have longed for that since we met.

I shut my eyes and a tear fell on my pillow as I lay on the bed. My fingers grasp the blanket tightly and my legs curled up. I was so vulnerable and naked. Is there anyone there, I knock? I shout, YOur Name. But, I don't hear your voice. I put my palms together and prayed. "Father, let this cup of burden pass. Please I don't want to feel this way anymore. You are my only hope and salvation. I only Know You. You always call me close so that you can hear my worries. I pray now that you will be here with me right now. I need you Now and Forever. Thank you Father".

I opened my eyes and my heart felt lighter. My vision was clearer. I still feel lonely but felt assured that a God given friend will come and help me carry my cross. With this in mind, I sat up from my bed and walked towards the LIGHT!

Close to my Heart.

I ponder on how my friends are coping with their studies. I remember when i did my exams, it was a daunting time just by studying alone. Ever worried that I may not retain the knowledge and facts that I learn the night before or the hour before. Ever caution of my health because its is winter time now and cold and flu is flying around. Looking back at those memories, made me realise that having friends close by, a positive msg from my friends or a friendly call had made me motivate myself to study more in a positive light. I felt i wasn't alone doing my exams. There are other people like my friends who are going through the same experience as i am.


Now when i am working, i feel that praying for my dear friends is the most important thing. Praying for them to show that we are one body in Christ. With our individual talents and gifts we are asked to support each other in any way we can. Never one of Christ Body will be left out. To all my friends out there, we will always have you in our prayers and in our hearts. Hugs! we will see you at the finishing line congrating you and embracing you for the efforts you put in your studies. Then, we will be together once more. enjoying God's every loving presence and his blessings.

Into my heart! You will see!

Hmm.. it has been a long time i written a blog and time flies so fast.. i was a child now i am an adult. I wonder where did all the bright and fun days we all had. The time we shared icecream together and sit on a bench on the park, just to watch the sun set past and holding our hands and knowing we will be together forever..


Where did all that dissapear? where is it i ask you? Did it drift away like a clound into the beyond? Did we love each other and feel the warm and tingling we felt for each other for the first time? Was all those a lie. I sighed. I imagine that you walk away from me leaving me alone at the bench. Leaving me cold and alone.

Why did you leave me? Did I say something wrong? Was I like the other people you met? One who leave you when there is struggle? Can I stand up and carry when you are down? or will I just fall?

Sighs.. i gazed into the sunset alone on the bench.. then i felt you brush my shoulder. I look at you as i hold your hand. You just look so lovely like the first time we met. No longer strangers anymore but closest friend. I brush your hair aside as the cool breeze catch you hair. You smiled and put my hand onto your heart. I wonder what does it mean? i don't understand. You gaze at me lovingly and nod. A reassurance feeling came over me and I put your hand onto my heart.

As we touch, i felt an overwhelming presence that I never felt before. Tears roll down my eyes and my hand start to shake of fear. You hold my hands firmly. I calmed down. Deep down in my heart, doubts of fear and loneliness was begining to crumble with each tear drop. I walked into my inner chamber of my heart. Afraid of the unknown, I walked carefully and nimbly not to fall on my knees again. I stood in front a gold enlaid door. I tried to open it but it was locked. Yet, I knew that I had the key. I slip my hand into my pocket and pull out the key. I looked at the key with amazement gaze. The key had your name on it. Tears become to roll once more.

What will I see behind this door? Will I drop and run away because of my wrong doings? Will you again welcome me when I didn't?

I stood at the door for awhile wiping away my tears and began to slid the key into the key hole. Click!.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Weekend came and flew away in just 3 minutes

Okay! I have about 18 minutes to blog about what I did during the weekend. Let see if I can summarise everything in several paragraph. Here we go

I asked for a leave on Friday, 01/10/09 as I needed a break from the last couple weeks of hectic traveling up and down from Sydney to Melbourne. On Friday, I went out with my close friends to the zoo. We had a great time there even though it was cold in the morning with a few showers. We went around snapping, posing, and (stopped blogging because my colleague asked me a question and I took a sip of my Nestlo) playing hide and seek with the animals. After a long day in the zoo, we went back to the city for dinner at Universal where I ate my usual T-bone steak, medium rare with mushroom sauce. Delicous! YummY!.

Day passed. Saturday arrived. Today we woke up early in the morning (stopped to think what to type next) for Sport's day. Sports day started with a shiver and end with empty groaning tummy and aching stiff muscles. I did not participate in the event for the same known reasons i.e. aching stiff muscles. I had training on Sunday so I better not injure myself on Saturday. Sports day turn out great, Some had some bruises on their knee/ankle, blister on the palm, aching stiff muscles. But, everyone had a great time. I had a great time too being there amongst the cheers,laughters,screams and bumps.

Okay I better be quick now. Another 9 more minutes till end of work and start of break of the day. Sunday came and stayed up for long long long long long time due to daylight savings. One hour ahead this time. Bugger! No more extra sleep in but more time outdoors. Spent the whole time training indoors though. Training went well even willingly try new things. One thing I will treasure most when someone in front of me said Oh man, I got a backache!. I ponder on this and I found myself laughing a little.

If you have a backache, what about me? I have headache!  running, jumping, spinning, breathing and kneeling in less than 3 minutes. I think it was a top effort on my side to be the last person standing :)